Day 11 -HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY

It's independence and the feeling of being alive and greatful has come over me. I'm happy today because I'm alive. I've been feeling a little down over the last few days...moody more than anything else I guess PMS must be around. Today however I feel like I'm truly greatful for just being alive.

I cycled to work today bank holiday and YES made it up university hill and I'm very happy with my accomplishment...I'm chuffed to bits at myself and will be even more happy when I cycle home and can relax and chill for the remainder of the day.

Day 8 - I"m still here

Been difficult to get online mainly because I've been so tired...but I'm still on track and still going raw.

Worked out twic today and feel knackered so this is just a touching base and will give you more tommorrow.

Diana

Day five - Rebuke negative messages

Hey had a good one today worked out this evening with Errol and despite his continuous atempts to make me feel bad and tell me how much weight I have put on I allowed it not to distract me and throw me off my focus. I am or can be very sensitive this I know and can often be influenced by peoples negative words but today I claimed victory over that and said no more not when it comes to Diana.
I am doing somthing about my weight and I am in control. I find Errol has a tendency to try and claim the prize for all the victory...my thing is this..yes it is your gym but I got there and I worked out and I changed my eating so when I get down to my 145lbs I claim the victory for that!

Eating was great

Had shake for breakfast consisting of lasco strawberry, banana, lechitin, and pinapple

lunch - fruit

dinner - lettace, houmous, cherry tomatoes and raw mushrooms..

tasted great!

Decided to continue at Errols even when I start the gym at UWI to do Monday and Friday classes only until February.

Saturday will be my rest day and Sunday I will go for a long cycle.

Would like to go to the market tommorrow and get my vegitables for the week. Okra, lettace, etc. ummmmmmm.
I'm eventually going to cut out on the shakes and substitute for juicing only.

Day Four - Proud of Me

Had a wonderful cycle this morning at 4am down the same route as the fun walk and then home felt hard but the best thing is that I did it and that in it self felt good. Gonna do another ride in the morning and then do Erolls class tommorrow evening.

Going to really push myself. I've been great with raw...for lunch had my houmous and shredded cabage and have a shake to go home too tonight.
This morning had lime juice-limes from Mrs Hinds tree.

Gonna make sure I get the bike so I can cycle in the morning.

Day Three - Going Raw

Well today felt good didn't do the gym this morning but went this evening and worked hard at it too!
Felt so inspired by Live Out Loud blogg I think she is great an absolute refresher. So here I am another day on my island in the sun and today I dont mind being here infact I'm enjoying the time.. I know that life is truly magical and it's so important to live in the mindset that we have to keep happy and enjoy what this life has. I've got so caught up in this thing work, buy house, get married have kids...it's like what ever happened to just enjoying life and what it has. Why be so serious allt he time. I need to enjoy! and of course look after this sexy body of mine I mean who else is going too !

I'm going raw .

Today was a good one!

Breakfast : Shake
Lunch : Green Salad and Houmous
Dinner : Shake

Day Two

I was so exausted yesterday I couldn't even muster up the energy to go online and this morning for some strange reason I couldn't log in..anyhow I'm here now and that's for sure!
Yesterday was a productive day so far as gym was concerned I did my workout with Eroll legs squats, biked and then stairmaster. My eating was where I wanted it to be although the desire to have sugar combatted me and I reached out for some but it's not the end of the world and I didn't binge on the things I wanted to most avoid....
No meat no bread no flour! au natural minus the sugar of course they were fat free (if there is such a thing as fat free sweets)

Got to keep in my head that I'm going to accomplish not only my weight loss but other achievments too. Have to remember that it's a transission that takes time and although I want a quick fix it's not going to happen like that it's a gradual process but I will get there.

So soldier Diana keep going!

DAY ONE

Today is the day and beyond all things I feel inspired by God and his presence in my life despite my failure and sins.
I somtimes hate myself for who I am I want to be right in Gods light and do right by his favor, I fear the Lord, Yes I do and I know that through sin I can't be happy or make him happy...so why do I have to be so? why why why?
Help me oh Lord help me today and beyond today be faithful to you faithful to doing right by you.

I embark on my 90days of healing my weight and I pray to God that he talks to me strengthens me and guides me I really need him.

I'm not weighing myself but I know I am about 185lbs by now my measurments are as follows:

ARMS 13"

WAIST 39"

BUST 41"

HIPS 44 1/2"

THIGHS 27 1/2"

The fun walk was yesterday and apart from aching lower body I enjoyed myself. I'm back at work either tommorrow or Wednesday I'm not exactly sure but I know it's going to be a little difficult getting back into the swing of things but it's all okay I will make it. I've decided to pursue all options of my academic achievments by applying to UWI, UK and Community that way I will not be disapointed and have choices.
Anyhow until later tonight when I head back to my place of of peach and day one is almost over.

"I wish above all things that you prosper and be in HEALTH as your SOUL prosper." 3 John 2.

AD Leaving Island

It's Saturday and today Andrew leaves the island until March it's not all that bad coz I will see him for Xmas God willing.
This morning we have to meet the land owner at Goodland because for some unknown reason the Devil is trying to make bad this sale. But we CLAIMED IT IN THE NAME OF JESUS!

Despite what the people say or have said about the land being a water hole whatever Andrew and I have plans for our going forward and I know God has that planned for us or in our plan.
We will build our property to accomodate the issues they may have there. That is an investment our investment and we plan to make it return.
God has allowed will allow this to be one in our testimony!

I pray that my light shines in the midst of adversity.

I'm looking forward to my begining on Monday I want to get back in shape! need too...just wait until you see the pics...what a shame!

Pre Days!

Okay so the last few days havn't really gone according to how I would have liked it to go in terms of my plan only because I hanvn't been to the gym and the eating admitely has not kicked in as yet. Yes I went to the health food shop and got the lecthin so I have the stuff to start and figure I will when Andrew leaves as to be honest he is a little distracting considering he is in my space and I find it so much better to focus when I'm on my own with no one looking over my shoulder making a job harder than it already is.

I feel a little pressured by him and I need to let that go and remind myself that this is about Diana not Andrew and as much as I would like to get down my wieght considerably by the time I get to the UK it's not the end of the world if I don't and once I follow my routine as planned I will get my health back in order within the desiered time that God has planned with no problem.
So Andrew despite your comments that "sitting at the computer an't going to loose the weight" or "when women get to 30 they start giving up on themselfs" well I can't afford to give up on myself and I have not given up on myself.
It's going to happen for me I will get back into my programe this is just a minor set back and as God continues to tell me in my life I simply get back up and start again. So I begin my programe with that in mind and continue on my journey to Liberation thru Purification! this is all part of my journey this is all part of it!

I love you Dianax

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Wednesday 15th November

Woke up feeling like absolute crap puffy eyes, puffy head puffy face, just all round puffy and it’s not even funny! So rather than have this big great idea to start my healing process on Monday as had in mind or when Andrew leaves why not start it now, today I start the process of Liberation thru Purification NOW!
I’m sick of feeling this way I really am, I know that last night I ate chocolate digestive biscuits I had M&M’s and I proberly ate half a Chicken also so how on earth can I expect to feel light and on top of the world? Answer that one. So as I embark on my process of elimination I can hold up my white flag and say enough already I am READY TO THROUGH IN THE TOWEL ON PROCESSED AND COOKED FOOD!

Despite what the thoughts are my real center is 145lbs and I know this and this is where I
Am going to be no longer overweight tired or with aches.

Gonna go to shereton and pick up some stuff gonna make a smoothie this morning with the ingredients I have home so to at least start on my way.
I forgot to mention at my trip to the doctors yesterday he mentioned that I needed to loose some weight even mentioned that I had to go down to my ideal weight which was what? Yes 145lbs so if the doctor is concerned about my weight gosh what on earth am I doing not being concerned about it?

90 days will take me to the 17th February my mothers 57th birthday if she was alive.

What is going on? I am at the beging of my journey and I feel committed to suceeding.


Thought for the day? I can do and achieve all things through Faith.


Diet

Breakfast lime and water
lunch tuna and maynoise with tomatoes in a wrap
Water throughout day

Workout -
9am intense workout with Errol high impact arobics

Body -
feels very sore


Mind - Clear with a little showers work begins tommorrow after a two week break

Soul- Want to give more to God


Words to express how I am feeling - positive, strong determind to suceed


What am I grateful for today - the opportunity to start again -thank you God


Final Thought for the day - I am ready

Preparation is the Key

It's time...I begin to prepare for my first 84 days of purification and restoration. My ultimate is to 365days of true healing of true self help and restoring what God gave me, a uniqueness of self.

I begin with the mental comitment to committ! and of course preparation is the key! the key to suceeding and the key to reap the rewards of all that is due.

I have spiritual Gains
Buisness Gains
Work Gains
Educational Gains
Weight loss /Fitness Gains

All of which I will benifit from on my road to Liberation.

I will begin on a 30day Natural Living following the principles of no meat not flour no sugar only raw foods and fruit with the ocasional broth or soup.
Then the next 30days will be fruit only nothing but fruit and live juices on evenings
The next 30days will be juicing pure and fresh juices only

I will then continue on a diet of natural foods raw foods 100% raw foods

I'm excited I can't wait I'm leaping over my head with excitment at the benefits and the blessings that will come my way!
I'm excited.
I really want to help people reach there goals and I want to help myself forfil my full potential!

I have a list of items to obtain from the supermarket and health food shop:-

Lecithin
Sprilina
Flaxseed

Raw foods
Salad
lettace
Tomatoes
Mushrooms
Okra
Carrots
Lemons/Limes

It's going to happen and I'm going to suceed. I will use this space to help me along my way journal my thoughts feelings, weakness's, encounters, voices from God you name it I will document it in my space!
Join me to suceed!